A New Beginning: The Birth of Spring

So this is just a glimpse at the warm season we've got coming
But, it's all I need :)

So temperatures seems to be warming up here in Kaysville, almost to the point that I feel comfotable in shorts outisde :) Can't wait to be able to dress like I'm ready to just relax outside again. Well, let's just day this, I'm so glad to have the warm season come back around again. Anyone agree?

Plus, the warm rain, the sunshine, and all the green?! It just adds to the good feelings that come during the warmer days. I look forward to getting pictures of budding trees and longer days, starry skies and relaxing in the grass.... Oh, I've missed the warmth so much and I'm glad it's back. However, it means we leave behind the past winter, and with it, it almost feels like a new year altogether. I'm glad for that, but at the same time, I'm going to miss what the cold brought me just months ago: more love of photography, my musical inspiration, and that old feeling of childhood memories.

I'm happy to see the sunshine and feel that heat, but at the same time, it means leaving behind those past few months. It means working towards something new, and often better in my opinion. We'll just have to see what the new year brings, then :/

Don't forget to let yourself enjoy the season. There's plenty of time to work and get things done. just let allow yourself that time to find peace and comfort.

Never lose your belief or your joy! :)

The Beauty in Music

So I'm really big in music right now, and i realize that you guys may not be big on music tips, but here are some that i think you guys will totally understand

Music is a Reflection of Life

      Our emotions are so heavily influenced by everyday actions and things we get to everyday. yes, We never actually realize it, but even music is a huge factor in how we feel everyday. Certain styles help add to our mood, some songs bring back personal, past emotions. It's the nature of music to help us feel, and it effects our lives so easily that we feel it so close to our hearts and souls.
       It's never easy to feel that certain music can hurt us: sometimes we feel like there are songs that bring back pain, some songs that bring back childhood memories and happy times. Music is so easily part of our lives and we don't realize how strong it is.

The Gift of Sound

      I love the way things sound. I could play piano for hours on end if I could because I just love how many melodies can just dance through my brain. Musicians are so great and plentiful that we can find so many styles and genres and types that we can find anything to fit us.
      Sound is a wonderful thing! Imagine if you could never hear anything at all... How would you feel without that basic thing that we don't realize? How would it feel to not hear music, or listen to a loved-ones voice, or hear the summer crickets? I can say that, if I didn't have that wonderful feeling of noise, I could never live the same ever again. I love sound too much to ever give it up. If I go deaf, let me die, because i will never be able to live without that wonderful gift! I'm too happy with it to ever give it up.

Little Blessings

     Consider the way you feel everyday. What makes you feel this way? What causes you to feel joy or sadness; to smile or cry; to feel playful or solemn? Music can do this, as well as anything else that meets us during the day. Music has so much to offer, and people don't realize how great it is
     Think about your music for a moment. How does it make you feel to listen to that music, those songs? Any song can help you feel something more than you think. Enjoy those sounds, because they are so precious. I know I would give anything if i couldn't hear so that I could, even for one day.

Until then, Thank you and enjoy your days. I hope you all find what you want in your music.

Thought of the Week- "Don't Look Back"

So, since my relationship has kinda fallen apart, I'm moving on to new things. Better things, I hope.... But my heart is still bound to that place in my past. True, it hasn't been long yet, but I figure that I'd known it was coming, so I shouldn't be so inhibited by that dark, twisted feeling. So, I searched for hours about good quotes and how to move on easily. None of it sounded like fun (or easy for that matter) but it was all exactly what I needed.

This one stuck out the most; when we start to move on, we find it hard to really leave that behind, back in the past where it belongs. Many look back and the "yesterdays" that they had, trying to remember those good feelings and the happiness they felt. That's okay, but if you need that, it becomes a crutch. We have to move on, and to do that we need to not look back and the past and leave it there to be only a memory.

It isn't east. Moving on takes a long time, and it is built up everyday by the little things that we do. I would urge everyone to look to the future with open eyes and open minds, believing that there is something better coming. It may take years to find it, but there is always a brighter side to this life. It may be hard to find, but it will come.

If you've been hurt, move on. If they didn't care then, they won't now. Push forward and find that "better tomorrow."

P.S. To be honest, these posts are as much for me as for you all, my readers. I'm dealing with the same things. Hell, I'm 17, so I know exactly how it feels to fall in love, and then to have to climb back up from the bottom. But I need these words as much as you do, maybe more, because I'm still hurting too... And maybe I just need to hear what no one will say

Life Lessons and Jenga

So, this is a little knew for a post on the blog. I didn't want to make this about spiritual experiences, or the fact that God has our lives figured, but today's moments have led me to see that this is the most important thing I have ever learned in my life. The sum of all grace in one, definite moment. I still tremble, hours later, and I can't explain the joy that it has brought me.

My relationship, this life that I've pursued for so much time now, has come to a close. It was completely mutual, and though it wasn't what I wanted, it's exactly what I needed. I didn't realize it at the time, but I'm glad that it happened. If it hadn't, I would still be hung up on that. Now's when I have to heed my own advice, deal with that 'rejection' of sorts, and move on with my life. But to the point!

Jenga is a simple game. It's all about moving wooden blocks around so that the tower stays intact as you try to build off of it. This can be referenced with our lives. While playing this game today, I realized that it is so easy for it to fall apart, just like life; we are constantly making decisions, some that have no risk, others that could influence the rest of our life. If we make the wrong one, even if we don't know for sure why we are making that choice, we can make our lives completely fall apart in one instant. Similarly, the tower may stand on only two blocks, and if one wrong move is made, the fragile structure comes tumbling down. My life was like that until now: anything could set me over the edge and I would have no clue how to help put it back together after that. But, what I didn't see where all the other people and all of the tools I had to help me know what to do and how to keep myself together.

I'm not saying that to figure out life you need to have a strong Come-to-Jesus moment, but for me it made all the difference. In everyday life, simple choices can have a big impact; not every decision will make or break our future, but many of those crucial moments can never be re-written. Once the dice are cast, there is no taking back that throw. But, we don't have to leave our lives to chance. We are in control of our destiny, and whatever higher power you believe in, be it a God, a Spirit, or some Force that helps guide and control life, it is there for you to hold to and be invested in. The Holy Spirit has shown me that light, and, though I feel that I was too far lost, I have been saved from that darkness. My trials are not over, but I'm coming out of that depression and sadness, and I'm open to the new choices that I have.

Do not leave your life up to one moment of chance. You have so much personal power! Be invested in that and you will find strenghts that you did not know you had access too. 'Often in times of greatest trial or opposition is when we see in ourselves the greatest amount of change.' I have no clue who said that, but it has stuck with me for so long. What it means is far beyond me, besides that we will find great change after we work to get through those dark times.

The tower of your life is made with the decisions that you make. Don't leave your life in someone else's hands. Only you can decide what you want to make of yourself. Never forget the powers that have been given to you in this life. You will find that, no matter how hard life gets, there is always a brighter end coming.

Trust in thyself and thy belief and you will find yourself stronger than anything that come at you.